2020 has been quite the year! With Covid-19, the elections, all the injustice & natural disasters, personal loss, alongside trying to give my best while parenting, adulting & taking care of myself, let's just say 2020 hasn't been a walk in the park!
Between social media & the news, everyone's voices are SO LOUD. There's so much hate, anger, pain & division, it's been disheartening at times. I felt like I was being pulled in all directions, needing & wanting to be everywhere but I couldn't, I felt hopeless....I felt...paralyzed. I couldn't even begin to think about what the first thing I would do was & about what? There was so much grief and so much was happening at the same damn time, I froze. When experiencing trauma, you either fight, take flight or freeze & I have to say I wanted to do all three at any given time depending on the minute of the day. My emotional body wanted to fight, my physical body wanted to take flight (maybe they interchanged at times) & my spirit stood still. I was torn and hard on myself, I had to take a step back. I had to come back home. What do I need right now? How am I really feeling? What's mine? What's the world's? How does this sit in my spirit? I had to realign & that's why I'm sharing this.
I've read articles, heard stories & have spoken to friends, 2020 hasn't been the easiest but it has been an opportunity for growth. Healing is taking place in the midst of chaos & it's ok to take a moment to come back home, to check-in & take care of you and what you need. You don't need permission, I'm just here to remind you because we tend to beat ourselves up thinking we need to do more, or should be like this person because they're doing this or that comparing ourselves to a journey that's not ours.
Since I've taken a step back it's been easier for me to write my story. I've always loved the quote "when writing the story of your life, make sure no one else is holding the pen" and that never rang more true. My story is my story, my journey is my journey just like yours, own it, live it & write it <3. Let go of people's projections, the negative thoughts & limitations in your mind and live life one day at a time. Some days will be great, other days maybe not so much, just be sure to check-in & see what you need to be your best. And one last thing that's really heavy on my spirit not only as a reminder to you but to myself, be kind to yourself, give yourself grace while you navigate through the rest of 2020. We're all really hard on ourselves, when all we want & need is love, who better to give it to you than yourself?
Wherever you are in your journey, I pray that you're open to receive the love that you deserve.
The light in me, honors the light in you.